The Ascension Papers: what is love
Removing the Blockages to Love
Negative Emotions
The second blockage to your heart that I wish to address is negative emotions. These are things such as fear, pain, anger, hatred, jealously, envy and greed. These emotions are both the result, and the cause, of blockages in the heart. Since they limit your capacity to find and express love I wish to address them with you now so that you might better understand them and learn to process them correctly so that they do not close your heart.
In order to explain this to you I am going to need to take a small tangent. Firstly I will need to make sure that you have an accurate understanding of the term, “duality”, that you understand the role of Consciousness Construct Holders and emotions generally and then we can correctly understand negative emotions.
Consciousness Construct Holders
I have, in the previous chapter, told you about Consciousness Construct Holders. These are beings who carry one consciousness construct or another into this reality. Your very own Inner-Self, for example, carries the consciousness construct of the energy which is “Joy”. There are many, many other such Consciousness Construct Holders, each responsible for bringing a different energy into this reality.
And the reason this is necessary and desirable is to make it possible for this duality reality to work. If you do not believe that you can create joy within yourself, then how will you ever feel joy? Without Joy-Divine holding this frequency for duality-conscious beings, this would simply not be possible. And, in just the same way, every other feeling, emotion and experience is held for those who are not themselves of creator- consciousness so that they can experience it outside of themselves. If you do not believe you can create it, then it must be created for you. Consciousness Construct Holders are those beings that reside in the higher densities of this reality where they do exactly that: they create and hold for you those things that you do not know you can create for yourself.
I suppose a reasonable analogy would be that the Consciousness Construct Holders are each shining a light into this whole reality and the light that shines is the energy of their particular consciousness construct. This is the gift they give.
Which is all very nice but, of course, if you do not know that you can create these things, then you certainly can feel as if you are a victim to them.
Z: I’ve heard it said, particularity by macho-type guys, that emotions are a weakness to be overcome.
8: Indeed! For the deeply duality conscious, emotions are at best just strange feelings that happen to you at inopportune times and, at worst, real impediments in your life. And so it is that emotions are a distracting, troublesome and confusing thing for those of duality consciousness.
As you become aware of your own creator nature, however, you become aware that you can, and do, create your own experiences. And one of the first things you learn, as you discover your ability to create, is how to self- emote. What this term means is the ability to create your own emotions from within yourself. If you can sit quietly and, without changing anything at all in your outer environment, without finding things to be happy about, just create joy for its own sake inside your own heart… then you will have self-emoted joy.
What will have happened here is that you will have felt it strongly enough and often enough as you journeyed through duality that you know how it feels. But now, as you awaken to your creator nature, now you are able to create it yourself. You no longer need a Consciousness Construct Holder to do this for you. Instead of waiting to feel that light shine upon you, you can now choose to light your own lamp inside yourself and shine that light.
You have moved, in this regard, from victim to creator.
And this is another of the wonderful things that can be gained from coming to duality. This might be hard for you to understand right now but, until a part of the ONE comes here, it only knows its own energy. Coming here allows you to forget your own energy and to experience all the many, many other energies on offer. And then, when you have re-awakened to your own true creator nature, you can then create each, any, or all of those energies for yourself from within yourself. Do you have any idea at all how powerfully this evolves your soul? It’s truly a wonder!
To reuse the analogy of the Infinite Elastic Ball, you yourself might previously have only known how to push out in the direction of joy but now, having been here, you know, directly and from within yourself, how to push out in a truly vast array of directions.
But I don’t wish to digress too far in that direction. What I wish to bring to your attention is that there comes a point in each soul’s journey through duality when it dawns upon that soul that it can indeed self-emote. That it is no longer the victim to its experiences for how it feels. When that soul is ready to take the next step, then there is a grand leap awaiting: the discovery of the awesome creative power of all the emotions that have been experienced and that can now be mastered.
The world of illusion has taught you that “what is true and real” is outside of yourself and that, as these “real” things change, so your emotions follow. You get happy when good things happen to you. But this is a lower- order reality. There is a greater truth that runs exactly the other way round: with your emotions you gravitate experiences to yourself. If you create joy and hold that frequency, then you will bring joyful experiences to yourself.
Z: I think that if you had told me this a few years ago, I would never have been able to believe you. But this is not a new concept for me and I have really tried it out. Or rather, I have begun to live this concept and I can say, unambiguously, that I know this to be true.
8: You raise an important point. The only way to turn such a concept from “strange theory” into “personal truth” is to experience it yourself, first- hand.
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Z: So, emotions are very powerful tools of creation. When we first enter separation we are limited to being able to create only with our own energy because that is all we know. But, as a result of being here in separation, we each gain a whole rich palette with which we can create.
8: Precisely.
Z: So what about the negative emotions?
8: A valid question. And what I’d like to share with you in this regard now is the understanding that “negative” and “positive” is just a matter of perspective.
Z: “There is not a single thing that is either good or evil but that you feel that way about it.”
8: Exactly.
Z: But you said we needed to correctly understand negative emotions so that they don’t close our hearts.
8: That’s right. So the negative emotions are energies that are carefully held by certain Consciousness Construct Holders and those energies are offered into this separation reality so that beings can use them and create with them.
If you wish to create separation, then you can use the negative emotions. If you wish to create oneness, then you can use the positive emotions.
Some parts of the ONE wish to create separation, polarity and duality. These are wonderful creations that catalyse spectacular growth and evolution for all who visit them. The negative emotions are those emotions that make it possible for these separation realities to come into being and remain stable long enough for all the souls that wish to explore them to do so to their satiation.
All parts of the ONE that have explored separation, polarity and duality will eventually come to a point where they will have gained all that they needed from these realities and will wish to extricate themselves. The positive emotions are what make it possible for beings to return themselves to wholeness and then also to return themselves to oneness.
And here comes the crux: the degree to which you, yourself, are of duality consciousness is the degree to which you will feel as if you are a victim of these emotions. It is the degree to which you will feel as if they are something that happens to you, rather than something that you can choose and create for yourself.
Z: So… let me see if I’ve got this right.
Negative emotions create separation, positive emotions create oneness…
8: I must interrupt. Emotions do not create anything. You create.
Z: Ah. So then we create separation with negative emotions and we create oneness with positive emotions.
If I create enough separation, then I find myself in duality where I believe that I do not create my emotions. In that state I just experience a mixture of all kinds of emotions, depending on what I am creating, even though I am unaware that I am creating. And this is where I will stay until I am ready to leave separation. Then I will have to take ownership of my own creative faculties and create with positive emotions. This will cause me to create wholeness within myself so that I find myself moving out of duality, through polarity and back to oneness.
8: Yes. That is a good summation of the situation.
Z: Hmm. Before we move on from the topic of negative emotions, if I may, I’d like to work through some objections with you.
8: Naturally.
Z: Okay, so I do get all of this – I understand that I create my own emotions. But what to do about the fact that, for most of us down here on Earth, for most of the time, it doesn’t feel like that. It feels as if stuff happens and then the emotions arise as a result of that. Not the other way round.
8: In other words, you feel as if you are a victim of your emotions?
Z: No. I’d say we feel as if we are victims of our circumstances. The emotions just follow. Let me give you some examples. If I was walking in the forest and a venomous snake suddenly rose up to strike me, I’d feel plenty of fear. And if Lisa decided that she wanted to leave me, I’d feel plenty of heartache. And when I read about the gross maladministration that the planet’s politicians are inflicting upon us all, then I feel plenty angry.
In these kinds of experiences, I feel as if things are happening to me, and the emotions are following.
8: And still you are asking me about this? After all that has been discussed? Really?
Z: (sheepishly) No, I suppose I don’t need you to answer that.
8: But then you know the rule. If you raise a question that has been thoroughly dealt with, then you must answer it yourself before we move on. So, you tell me – what do you do about the feeling that you are a victim to your experiences?
Z: It’s a matter of shifting my perspective to the realisation that everything I am experiencing is, in some way, invited by me. Either by me, Zingdad, or by the me that I am outside of incarnation, my Inner-Self. Either I am consciously creating it or unconsciously inviting or allowing it.
I invite experiences so that I can make choices about them. When I have firmly made a choice about something, then I can let it go and it won’t arise for me to look at again.
8: So, the snake?
Z: Would not really be a random event. I mean, I know that, in my experience here on the farm. Snakes don’t hang around randomly waiting to bite humans. They clear off if they hear you coming. But I had a visitor who kept saying over and over, “I hope we don’t see a snake, I am petrified of snakes!” and then, on a walk in the forest, sure as nuts, there was a huge puffadder lying across the road. It was the only one I’d seen in many, many months.
8: And you have never yet seen one on your own land.
You see? This is not your problem and you are not bringing it to yourself for it to become a problem. So…
Z: So, no need to fear.
8: And Lisa leaving you?
Z: Well, that was just a silly example. I know that what I have with Lisa is a sacred soul-contract. Our Inner-Selves are dancing together through our interaction. And yet, for all that, I also know that eternity is a very long time. And from that perspective, this here is a place where her Inner-Self and mine are co-creating and, equally there are many, many other places in eternity where we are not. What I mean is that I know and understand that our association does, from one perspective, come to an end. But, from another perspective, we will both be forever changed by this interaction between two mortal beings on planet Earth.
8: That is true and also quite beautifully put. But it doesn’t answer your own question. Will you or will you not be heartbroken if Lisa leaves you? And are you then not a victim to that experience?
Z: Okay. So here’s how I see it. If Lisa and I are both following our hearts, and so remaining in resonance with our Inner-Selves, then we are both doing our highest good. If it is in either her or my highest good that we terminate our relationship, then that will, on the one hand, be sad. It is sad when something wonderful ends. But, of course, it will also be right. And so, I won’t feel a victim to that experience.
8: That’s very well said.
And so, finally (he gives a little sigh) what about the politicians? Z: Yeah. This is old hat already, isn’t it?
The way I see it is that politicians are just a part of the furniture of a duality conscious world. People give their power to politicians by voting for them. Then the politicians become corrupted by that power, they abuse it and the people get angry. They then vote someone else into power, who does the same thing. And the politicians, as we have already discovered, are themselves just the pawns of the Super Powerful Individuals. They are actually just dancing the line between “following orders” and keeping their image polished.
As long as I am giving this my attention and getting angry and engaging in the whole political circus, then I am actually feeding the system.
8: That’s quite correct.
Z: But that does lead me to wonder… How can we do things differently? How can we really make things work for us? All of us? There must be a better way… but what is it?
8: Now you are asking the right questions!
In due course you’ll be talking to Adamu again.
(Zingdad Note: See Book 3 of The Ascension Papers)
Ask him these kinds of questions. Ask him about what has worked in other civilisations across the galaxy. Ask him how other civilisations transitioned from primitive power-imbalances to highly-advanced love-based systems. And then see if what he has to say is not applicable to your situation.
But that is not what we are talking about now. What we are talking about is negative emotions and how you have allowed them to block your heart.
Now that you have heard my perspective on all of this, how do you think you can process them so that they no longer block your heart?
Z: I think I get the theory. It is to understand that I am the creator of my own emotions. To know that I choose how I feel. And then to be conscious of what I am choosing and to make choices that do not limit my ability to love. So that’s the theory, but I can tell the practice will be quite challenging.
8: That’s a very good start. If you have the theory straight in your mind, then at least you know where you are going. But you will not be done with turning this into practice for quite some time. For truly, when you master your emotions, then you will also be ready to master your creations. And when you arrive at that point, you will be ready to exit duality altogether.
Perhaps the greatest difficulty with negative emotions is that most of them are relegated to your Shadow. This is a part of your psyche that is hidden from the light of your own awareness. It is that part of yourself that is unclaimed by you. And since you are largely unaware of this part of yourself, it can enact all kinds of negative emotions upon you without you being able to understand how or why any of this is happening to you. So this is a vital topic that you will, in due course come to address in detail.
(Zingdad note: Part 2 of Dreamer Awake! Is called “Shining the Light on Shadow” and it is exactly what 8 is talking about here: an in- depth journey into healing Shadow)
But at least you have the concepts; you have understanding, and you are on your path towards a truly open heart.
Z: Thank you, 8! I think you said that the next point was about identifying ourselves with who we really are?
8: Correct. We have already addressed this when I spoke about ego, so I will be brief.
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