The Ascension Papers
Chapter 9.
A Mystical Interlude
The Ascension Papers
Chapter 9.
A Mystical Interlude
when, as a result of the fear or your judgements about it, you choose not to search the unknown, “The first thing to do is to make the choice to allow yourself to look at the unknown. ”
“It is quite okay to feel some fear of the unknown, but when, as a result of the fear or your judgements about it, you choose not to search the unknown, then you enter an area of difficulty. You then make it impossible for yourself to begin to find answers for your doubt. You shut down your own creative power. And so you remain in a state of doubt and you cannot get out of it. You find you are debilitated by it.”
“The first thing to do is to make the choice to allow yourself to look at the unknown. ”
“Without uncertainty there is nothing new and no creation. If you embrace uncertainty, you embrace creation.”
Imagine you are sitting next to a camp-fire on a dark and moonless night. You can only see as far as the light of the fire penetrates the gloom and you have no other source of light.
What do you do? Do you huddle closer and closer to the fire and shiver with fear at every leaping shadow? Or do you respond to the dark, unknown landscape with curiosity?
If you feel fear, then you stay put. You probably won’t even look out at the darkness because it makes you feel uneasy.
If, instead of fear, you feel playful curiosity then, without a second thought, you stand up and venture out into the darkness. You allow your eyes to adjust to the darkness and begin to explore and to open yourself to new discoveries. And, in so doing, you expand your knowledge of your environment. And, as you learn new things, so you actually expand yourself!
Now this is obviously just a hypothetical situation. I am not saying that one should be foolhardy and stumble around in the dark of night. I am simply illustrating a point, which is about the way you respond to the unknown. If you respond to it with joy, you experience expansion of the Self. If you respond to it in fear, you experience a contraction of the Self.
Now the thing you must understand is that there is, and always will be, a great amount of “unknown” in your experience of life. There will always and forever be a great deal to be uncertain about.
Z: Really, 8? Always? Even for someone like you?
8: (laughs) Oh my goodness, yes! Let me explain: the ONE is infinite, right?
Z: Right.
8: And within the ONE is an infinite multiplexity of manyness, right?
Z: Yes…
8: And, since change is the only constant, all of that manyness is eternally and infinitely changing, expanding and growing. Right?
Z: Right.
8: Do you understand what that means? It means that the ONE is infinite and yet is expanding at an infinitely fast rate! It is simply mind boggling to even attempt to comprehend it. And this of course means that there is an impossibly huge amount of stuff “out there” beyond the periphery of any one being’s perceptual field. And what is “out there” just gets more and more! And no matter how fast you grow, learn, experience and understand, the “unknown” will always grow faster than you. Because the faster you “expand”, the more you expand the ONE and the faster you help all other aspects of the ONE to grow. It’s really awesomely beautiful. The mystery just deepens and expands.
So yes, assuredly, there is always more and more unknown, uncharted and unexplored territory. There is always newness. There is always mystery. And mystery, when viewed from the personal perspective, is uncertainty. The question is quite simply how you will choose to respond to it. Will you shrink back from it in fear or will you explore it with joy? That is up to you. And, as always, you will get exactly what you are creating and you will experience the results of your creation.
Do you follow?
Z: Yes. Thank you for the patient explanation. That makes sense.
8: So let’s see how this has worked in your life. Let me ask you this: that boy who first sat down with a pebble in his hand and asked me if I was “out there”.
(Zingdad note: see Chapter 1: An Introduction to Zingdad)
That boy who asked me if I loved him. That boy who sat there night after night asking his questions and laboriously finding a path out of his incomprehension with yes/no answers…
Was he venturing out into the darkness or was he sitting close to the fire? Z: He was venturing out.
8: And how did that work out for him?
Z: Quite well, it seems.
8: You think?
I think it was one of your finest moments!
If you think about it, The Ascension Papers and all the other processes and questing that you have done, all flowed forth from that moment. Certainly, along the way you developed and refined your ability to listen. But it was in that first moment with that pebble in your hand that you stood up from your comfortable, safe spot at the fire. You turned to face the darkness of the unknown and you stepped forth boldly for the very first time. With no precedent, with no cause to believe that it would work, with no-one to show you the way, you chose joy over fear in the face of uncertainty.
It was a moment of your life that I will always treasure.
I had no intention, in this lifetime of yours, to have conversations like this with you. It was not a part of any plan that I was aware of that I’d reveal myself to you and that we’d converse as we now do. But how could I resist such courage, such a willingness to open yourself, to expand yourself and to explore the unknown? I could not! You made my heart beam. I was so proud to be a part of what you were trying to do. And so I could not help but play along.
And now, in continuing these conversations, you continue to broaden your search. You continue to expand yourself into the darkness. In fact you turn the areas of darkness you encounter into areas of light by the very act of exploring them. You bring your light to them.
And this is what you have done with uncertainty.
Do you not see? The Ascension Papers is entirely a product of your uncertainty. And you don’t know it yet, but The Ascension Papers is just the beginning. This is really just the record of your first foray into the darkness of uncertainty. You have an eternity of discovery and creation ahead of you. You cannot now even begin to imagine the beauty and joy that will flow forth from your future creations as you bring your light to the darkness. As you expand into uncertainty.
Now, I ask you, do you wish for us to take away your uncertainty? Do you wish to cease to experience it?
Z: Good grief, 8, that is a very surprising perspective on all this. Wow. No, I guess I don’t want to stop having uncertainty.
But how do I not get attached; how do I not slip into debilitating doubt?
8: Let’s look at this. You started this conversation by telling me of your doubt. You admitted that you found that you could even doubt my independent existence. And yet, despite that, still you come to me for a conversation about this. Still you keep asking questions and exploring possible answers. Still you open yourself to the possibility of growth. Still you move out into the darkness in ever greater arcs, searching the unknown. And that is what I meant when I said to you previously that you had done enough work with fear and doubt to allow The Ascension Papers to come through. What I meant was that you had come far enough not to let it debilitate you. Not to bring you to a halt. Because that is what happens when you feel uncertainty and you respond to it with fear and then judge yourself for feeling the fear. This is what I was telling you when I spoke of “debilitating doubt”.
It is quite okay to feel some fear of the unknown, but when, as a result of the fear or your judgements about it, you choose not to search the unknown, then you enter an area of difficulty. You then make it impossible for yourself to begin to find answers for your doubt. You shut down your own creative power. And so you remain in a state of doubt and you cannot get out of it. You find you are debilitated by it.
So, you have already passed that first hurdle. Though you still feel the pain of doubt, you do not any more allow it to stop your growth and progression. And that is as a result of your own choice to keep moving forward, irrespective of the doubt.
Now you wish to leap the next hurdle. You wish to cease causing yourself pain over your uncertainty.
Let’s take a step back and look at the healthy way to deal with uncertainty:
The first thing to do is to make the choice to allow yourself to look at the unknown. If you feel a fear or a doubt or a question, don’t shy away from it, don’t fear it; go and look at it. Make a decision that you will seek to replace this uncertainty with insight, understanding, answers and wisdom. As soon as you do this, you will find that the “stuckness” of your doubt is replaced by the freedom of having options. When you have options, then you can choose. When you can choose, then you can create. And when you begin to create, then you re-connect once again with your God-Self. And of course, this is immediately a lot healthier. Even if you still have the same uncertainty and the same questions, just the fact of looking at your options allows the energy to flow again. And let me tell you something that is true – there are always options. If you can’t see any, then you are simply choosing not to look.
If you do not have the answers you need then you must seek within, in your own inner truth, in your own heart, in your personal connection to the divine. This will often entail quite a bit of work. You will have to learn to listen to your inner voice. You will have to learn to trust yourself. To love yourself. But you will find, as you progress, that you begin to lose your fear of the unknown. You will venture out into those areas of unknown questions with greater and greater courage. You will begin to enjoy the process of searching your heart, your psyche and the whole universe for the deepest meaning. Slowly your fear will transmute into love. And when you approach your uncertainty with true, open-hearted love, then you will discover a very magical thing – playful curiosity.
And this is when you leap your next hurdle. This is when you begin to play with uncertainty without causing yourself pain.
Playful curiosity allows you to enact your most creative self in the search for answers without attaching your ego to the outcome. You play. You have fun. You create. The most amazing and marvellous answers will come to you if you are able to reside in a state of playful curiosity. If you don’t fear being wrong. Because “wrong” just means an answer that didn’t work. And that, therefore, is another opportunity to play again!
You see?
And it all starts with uncertainty and how you choose to feel about it.
Z: That’s awesome 8. I really like that. Because that is what happened when I got things wrong previously. I just found an answer that didn’t work. It was internally inconsistent and it couldn’t happen. It was tough going but I did begin to play again and now I have a much improved answer. And it is, as you say – it all starts with the willingness to explore my own uncertainty.
8: And there is more. Let’s look at the opposite of uncertainty. Let’s look at “certainty”. Things that are certain are fixed. We say that we are certain about them precisely because we feel that they are unchangeable and immutable. We use these “certainties” and build our reality and our perceptions of ourselves upon them. They are our very deepest truths and, as such, they are the scaffolding upon which we create. And they are therefore very valuable to us. Without them we would have a hard time creating anything of any meaning or significance. I mean – how would we create realities such as the universe you are in and the planet you are on without the rules of physics being what they are? If there were no rules at all, there would be chaos, and life as you know it could not exist.
And how would you begin to understand yourself if nothing about you seemed to remain fixed for any length of time?
Z: Very difficult. I can see that.
8: So these truths of ours, these “certainties”, have great value to us and we love them dearly. But they are, in fact, transitory. Given sufficient time, every single thing that we now hold to be true will come to be less true, and then eventually untrue. It is thus for you as an individual, it is thus for your spiritual monad, and it is thus for all of life, everywhere. The things you now believe about yourself and your reality will inevitably come to change and evolve. You will gain new beliefs as the old ones cease to serve you and you release them. That is the nature of “The Truth”. Like everything else, it always changes. And so it is for all the things about which we are certain. In time we will come to be less certain of them and then, eventually, we may even come to be certain that they are not so!
Z: Everything, 8?
8: To the very best of my rather exhaustive effort to be able to discern, I will say that this is so of everything. Other than the one immutable truth, of course, which is…
Z: “The ONE is.”
8: Correct. And this is only an immutable truth due to its innate capacity to contain infinite change. So, “The ONE is,” and as for the rest… “Change is the only constant.”
And if there is only change then, given sufficient duration of experience, you will experience great change. Given infinite experience, you will change infinitely. Hardly sounds like there is much room there to hold onto small truths about your current reality, does it?
Z: No, I guess not. It sounds like uncertainty is a certainty.
8: (laughs) Exactly. And it is a very good thing that this is so. Because it is the areas of uncertainty that we can grow and change into. The areas we temporarily hold to be certain are the areas at which we stop looking and in which we stop growing. And so here is the important realisation:
“Without uncertainty there is nothing new and no creation. If you embrace uncertainty, you embrace creation.”
If you open your heart to uncertainty, then you allow your greatest, most divine self to play with it. You actually move into “genius”. Uncertainty is the greatest muse of all!
(Zingdad note: The ancient origin of the word genius referred to a state of consciousness in which a greater spirit, a genie, acted through the hands of a “mortal” being)
Cherish it. Seek it out. Explore it. Love it. And, most of all, have fun with it.
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