An unexpected event occurred. I am not referring to God bringing someone into my sight in an incredible way – of course, this is unexpected.
I am referring to when I realize that resistance is futile, decide to submit, turn around, embrace and welcome that energy with open arms – then – something unexpected happens.
I have observed that one of my physical and mental issues has been corrected. In short, it means that my sexual frigidity has been healed invisibly. If it weren’t for the comparison of healing, I would have almost forgotten that there was another problem in my life journey. The meaning of “life journey” is that before healing, that problem has always been present.
After realizing this transformation, I spent some time perceiving: whether to write it down or not, take a note. I think we should write notes. This means something to me. Perhaps it also has enlightenment for destined female compatriots. Now I understand/see that sexual frigidity is a physical and mental state that is a protective mechanism of the body itself, or in other words, an automatic defense.
The reason is simple: fear. Lack of security. I certainly know where my problem comes from. This is the behavior pattern exhibited by my dearest father, the first man from the source of my life, during his youth when he treated the supreme woman from the source of my life, my dearest mother, leaving an indelible mark on my life.
During my college years, I had a boyfriend who lived in a different place, far and wide, rarely had gatherings, and my relationship issues remained unresolved; Later on, I started working and had a husband.
The marriage lasted for 8 years in name (2012-2020), but in reality, the last two years were a difficult period for me.
My energy no longer supported the form of marriage. In the first six years, our time together was actually very limited. Xiaobu’s father spent most of his time in school under the guise of work, and his companionship with us was rare.
The most important thing (not to say he’s not a good person) is that he has a closed heart. He chooses to believe that he is not loved (except for his mother). I often feel the vibration of love surging towards him in my heart, like encountering an airtight tin bucket.
It can be imagined that with such a husband, can sexual coldness improve? No problem. Sometimes it also hurts. I can’t stand being in the same room with him for the next two years, even though there are few gatherings in front.
Occasionally, when he comes home from his busy work, I directly let him go to another bedroom. Since you are not happy and cannot love/not truly love, why pretend to be there?
Amidst his persistent avoidance and refusal to communicate, and with the encouragement of his family, I finally couldn’t bear it anymore and took action: taking my child directly to his school, forcing him to step down. The next day, in a friendly and peaceful atmosphere, the two lifted their ties and regained their freedom.
After regaining my freedom, I entered my three-year period of intensive cultivation and recuperation. I have a premonition that it will take two years: purification, internal rebirth, growth, and maturity. I didn’t expect to meet someone in the third year. I once saw myself questioning: can I still fall in love with others? Looking around, there is a vast sea of people. There is no one in my heart.
God probably saw me pass the test and unexpectedly pulled someone out of the universe in an incredible way, as if saying, “See if this is your dish.”. I am very grateful to God, and I am also grateful for his presence here, allowing me to see that I can still love. I love.
My heart recognized him.
My body also recognizes him. Human will cannot resist the will of God, and God’s will is the will of love. When I decided to give up resistance, submit, turn around, embrace and welcome that energy, it integrated into my consciousness/life. The performance is – without making any effort, his mind is full of him. In the morning, when I open my eyes, I call out to him in my heart and talk to him; Before going to bed at night, call out to him in your heart and talk to him; Even when I wake up in the middle of the night, my heart still calls out to him.
Whatever you do during the day, you can feel his lightness and invisibility in your heart. Amazingly, I didn’t feel any interference. There is also no overwhelming sense of infatuation. Still firmly establish the central government. Feeling clear and fulfilled. Maintain a stable and balanced center of gravity. Like joy in first love, but without fear.
One night, I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn’t sleep. The voice in my heart called out to him, which was the word I called him. With the call of my soul, a powerful yet gentle and delicate energy gently washed over me, feeling both my body and heart yearning for him, yearning for both the flesh and the flesh. My heart and heart, as well as my soul and soul, melted into a delicate and pleasant tenderness… When I woke up this morning, I knew it was him without a doubt. No one makes me feel like my heart is heating up instantly, let alone anyone makes my body feel responsive, except for him.
The gentle and delicate powerful energy cluster did not dissipate at once, and after soaking in the energy hot spring bath for one or two consecutive days, it slowly calmed down to the limbs and gradually stabilized.
I am surprised and amazed by this higher-level new energy: putting in so much effort to purify my body and mind, the sensation of my body and mind has become like this. How different from the almost explosive pressure of a moment over a decade ago.
From this, it can be seen that some true practitioners of yoga are dedicated to purifying and elevating their consciousness to new levels. They do not marry or marry, which may seem lonely to the common eye. However, in reality, you do not know how deeply and sincerely they are immersed in love and pleasure. The kind of tenderness, sweetness, purity, and divinity is something that material people with an unborn mind cannot imagine.
Physical beings are only connected at the physical level, while practitioners engage with God in their hearts – their joy is boundless, their joy is boundless! And God is not limited in any way, always in his heart, always with him, always found. After the energy event occurred, I had a realization that humans should not limit God with their own limitations.
I used to limit God with my limitations. I used to think I was very difficult to handle. I have no sexual desire. Normally, a normal man is not willing to find someone who is unwilling to have physical contact with him. Can I find someone without sexual desire?
I once thought. If you have no sexual desire but love, your cultivation is extremely advanced. Otherwise, if you have no sexual desire, you are not a healthy person. I certainly want to find a healthy person with love (preferably without sexual desire) – I used to limit God from my own perspective. Fortunately, God is the true God and doesn’t even care about my absurd thoughts. He showed me directly: I have no problem.
I am healthy and complete. I am beautiful.
Yes, it has always been God’s work. When these things happened, the person brought up by the god didn’t know anything. After I made the decision, I waited for a few more days feeling unable to hide before adding him, and we talked a few words each day with a more reserved attitude. But does he know?
I have been pondering on him in my heart for so long, and I am already very familiar with him in my heart. And I also have a feeling that he and I have already been married for a long time. All the things we need to do in this world have already been done. I have already finished what I said to him, there is no need to say anything more, and there is nothing I want to ask.
I actually have this feeling. I cannot explain. Fear of marriage and sexual apathy were all my former illnesses. I never expected that God would have my medicine.
It seems that this time he is specifically targeting me – giving “medicine” to the “symptoms” and delivering it accurately. God, let me continue to appreciate you, admire you, and love you in my heart. Although my love for you may seem insignificant compared to your sincere love for me, I still want to offer a drop of love and endless gratitude to the sea. You always work in unexpected places, through unexpected people and unexpected moments, to achieve your miracles!
I love you. Thank you.
What is another new insight?
I see that people cannot go further with a sense of limitation. It is also impossible to rise higher with limited thinking. Before entering the increasingly refined spiritual garden of the universe, it is necessary to uproot every weed in consciousness and dissolve/dissolve every limiting belief.
God knows how to do this job. Easy and easy. God can help effortless
I see that in the love and grace of God, I bathe in the divine light and become increasingly pure and pure.
Affirmative: I do not restrict the Holy Spirit of Israel through language, thought, or action. As long as you are with God, everything is now simple and possible. I won’t set my sights on my own limitations to limit God.
When God is with me, anything can happen.
I do not limit God by seeing limitation in myself With God and myself all things are possible
All constraints are illusions of class consciousness. Under grace, all situations must have a way out. Everyone is free to fulfill God’s will. My happiness is God’s business.
I cannot resist the perfect companion bestowed upon me by God. Expressing one’s emotions is a good thing. When I express emotions, I love myself.
I know I am a unique and wonderful existence, and I accept this fact. Life is unfolding before my eyes in an incredible way, and my mood is as calm as water. My life is filled with endless love, light, and joy, and my world is full of beauty.
Ps: There are ten items in the Q&A section on the reconstruction of life, P158, and the Declaration on Sex, which seems to be included as well. Considering that the healing work related to sex and gender is a long-term and arduous spiritual task, this is just beginning, and there is an opportunity to open another chapter.
I know God fully recognizes and supports me.
Sananda 